This is a story of my personal experience and insights on Christianity, especially after a childhood spent in Catholicism and an early adult life studying mystical traditions such as gnosticism and other esoterica.
First, the good things: overall, the benefit of a church is the physical and non-physical social structure it offers members. It is a community. And though people don’t have much opportunity to interact during actual mass, there are plenty of opportunities provided outside of mass to strengthen the community. For example, after mass each Sunday, our church had a coffee and donuts social hour, where adults could sit and talk and kids could play in the gym or outside. I remember the loud din of these events, and they were what I enjoyed about Sunday mornings.
There were also further extracurricular events, such as golf outings for fundraising and building houses for Habitat for Humanity. The social services that the church provided, including a space for a community to be a community, I felt was indeed its most positive aspect.
To be blunt, I didn’t like mass that much. I mostly used that time for daydreaming, or staring at the colored light filtering through the stained glass windows. Sometimes my daydreams would move me to tears; my family interpreted this as me being devoutly religious. Although, it is true that I sometimes used that time to ponder philosophical things.
I appreciated the teachings of Jesus, including the parables, miracles, Beatitudes, and the issue that love was the most important thing.
As I grew older and more perceptive, though, I began to notice ways in which the church was quite divergent from the teachings, or rather, ideals of love, truth, and justice.
I didn’t care for Catholic dogma, and wasn’t ever thrilled to be sitting in the audience of a boring old guy telling me what to think and do. I challenged my youth group leaders many times. The older I got, the more critically I thought, although it started very young, before I was 10 years old.
I remember being quite horrified by the lifelike, but larger-than-life, sculpture of a dying Jesus on the cross, at the center of the back of the church. It was impossible not to notice as you were walking past, this tortured man with nails in his hands and feet and painted blood. Sure, it wasn’t real, but it’s very macabre. Where else in life do you have a figure of a tortured dying man, that you walk past routinely? And no one seems to think anything of it. At least, they don’t talk about it.
And I guess that’s the point of the whole thing, to just go along and not be disagreeable, but that’s not who Jesus was. He was turning over tables in the temples. He was pissing off ‘authorities’ left and right — to the point that they had to have him tortured and killed. To set an example.
I always felt like this was what the tortured dead man on the cross was really put in our faces for; to remind us of what happens when we disobey. To put the pain of fear and death in us.
And this is the lie that Christianity runs on.
I always knew in my soul that reincarnation was the reality of the situation here, and I don’t even know how I knew that, because obviously it was not a teaching of the Catholic Church, and it’s not something my parents taught me either. But I knew it was real.
And obfuscation of this truth is part of the lie.
They need the lie to control you. Remember, Jesus did not start Christianity. He created what was called “The Way” — to live as a divine human being on Earth, exemplifying principles of love, truth, and justice. Principles which were very counter to the ruling elite, which they had to squash.
This mission took several hundred years — the Roman Empire, the same empire which tortured and crucified Jesus, then wove the teachings into its own propaganda to create the Catholic Church — in the 4th century. More than 300 years after Jesus walked on Earth.
Even still, it was well into the Middle Ages when the Cathars, said to be those who retained the original teachings and were followers of The Way, were brutally exterminated by the Roman Catholic Empire. It seems the Empire’s use of the dying, tortured man on a cross is an emblem of their brutal legacy and public policy.
They need this policy because it’s what keeps the masses in subservience to them. By hiding the truth of reincarnation and supplanting it with the false resurrection story — something I also always intuitively sensed was unreal — believers are controlled by fear of hell and absolution of sin through human blood sacrifice. As this becomes woven into the fabric of existence for the collective consciousness, they never learn the truth about themselves and what their lives are really for.
This is, of course, a heretical teaching, which would have come with severe punishment in the Middle Ages. But it’s important to be aware that the charge of heresy is not just a name-and-shame game; the hidden role is its benefit to the Empire, in that it effectively transfers the property of the convicted heretic to the Empire’s possession. They have spent the past 2,000+ years making it very clear that they own you.
Now, people are leaving the Church in droves, yet it’s not a true liberation. Instead, they have traded Religion for Science; much of the tactics remain the same, as of course, does the Empire behind it all.
For example, now, instead of denying any aspect of the old religion, try denying any aspect of the new religion, which is (state-sponsored) Science. Try not buying into the Covid mainstream media/government narrative. Try not wearing a face mask, not getting a Covid vaccine, not supporting vaccine passports. Try being a business and staying open under forced closure mandates.
And you will see that the Empire and its slavish supporters are still very much in effect. We see it every day on social media. Bureaucrats shutting down restaurants and churches, worshipped and praised by the mind-controlled masses, who also turn into a social media mob against anyone who dares speak out against the insanity and tyranny.
If Jesus were reincarnated and walking the Earth today, in a new body, he would definitely be one of the ones speaking out about this. And yet, ironically, I’ve seen more than one comment from a Christian who says that wearing a mask and shutting down is the Christian thing to do.
Of course, they don’t mean “Christian” in the sense of Jesus, who challenged the Empire. They mean “Christian” in the sense of what it has come to mean in the modern day: a normal, mind-controlled sheeple in western civilization.
It’s an important distinction to make, and something I noticed long ago by the bizarre and hypocritical way many Christians treated me. I couldn’t make sense of why people who claimed Jesus, behaved in the complete opposite way.
And then I realized, they are Christian because it’s the status quo of the Empire, which brutalized and killed the man, then co-opted the Jesus story and twisted it to fit their own gains.
The sad truth is, if Jesus or any of his apostles including Mary Magdalene (whom the Empire also lied about — she was a princess, not a prostitute) were reincarnated today, though they would naturally have some supporters — those who gravitate to truth, justice, and love — most people would not recognize them, and would treat them like the enemy.
It’s something to ponder in this week following Easter, in which we go through another round of the same year on repeat. Although spring is a wonderful time which does inspire life and hope of renewal, and even suggests resurrection — the flowers are literally popping up from the ground — let’s no longer be led by lies. Let’s commit or recommit ourselves to the truth.
[Of note — I am not trying to take what you love from you. You can have your angels, saints, miracles, pilgrimages, churches, architecture, music, inspirational quotes, whatever. I’m just separating the wheat from the chaff.]